||[May. 17th, 2009|02:00 am]
This doesn't happen very often. When it does, it comes crashing down on me like an anvil. I can feel it weighting down on my neck and shoulders.|
My feelings got all fucked up a moment ago. I had this giant feeling of being disregarded. Not respected. Unimportant and not worth the time.
There is a pretty lengthy list of reasons for this. The overwhelming sense of emotion was brought on when all of these reasons came to mind in rapid fire. This and this and this and this and this and this and this.. and now THIS. I will admit that I felt my eyes water up.
I'm not that big of a pussy. Things just suck right now.
It's 2 am. I told myself I would go to bed before 4 am.